A friend and I were discussing our daily walk(s) with G_d. We talked about how difficult it can seem to walk in obedience according to the Word and not according to the flesh. As we shared the struggles we were each facing to get our financial, emotional and spiritual needs met, I had a re-revelation of something our Father had shown me during another dark lonely period about how actually walking with G_d differed from my expectation of walking with G_d.

My flesh wants me to do something and be productive every day. It wants G_d to give me a checklist of things to do every day to show that I love Him and that I love others. It wants constant and obvious feedback to soothe itself and reassure its owner that I am on the right path.

My flesh does NOT want to stride out into darkness trusting in the Vision of the Invisible G_d. Even my mind, at least the not yet renewed segments, rebels against walking when there are no discernable landmarks. My flesh cannot see, hear, touch, smell or taste G_d. Thank G_d, my flesh is dead:

I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ lives in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me. Galatians 2:20 AKJV

In Ancient Hebrew (as explained in this YouTube video), they used words that represented concrete concepts. For instance the word for past means in front and the word for the future is behind. The past is in front of me and myfuture is behind me. In the Hebrew thinking, the past is known so it would be in front of me where I can see it while the future cannot be seen so it is behind me where I cannot see.

So…If I walk forward toward what my flesh has known and in the patterns of my past, I am backsliding. While “advancing backwards” may sound like a contradiction, it means to allow G_d to take me safely where I have no sensual (flesh) experience and cannot see, hear, feel, taste or touch the path.

Have you ever watched someone play that game called “trust” where they fall backwards into the arms of their companions? I choose to fall backwards into the arms of G_d and rest in Him while He takes me to my destiny. I choose to obey the Word and walk in the Spirit and let Him be the light of my Way.

This does not mean that I will never have clear guidance and direction.

In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he will make plain thy paths. Proverbs 3:6 (Darby)

It does mean that if I cannot see, hear, smell, feel, or taste anything, I will hold onto the Word I know and trust and I will not be afraid. The way to know the way is to KNOW THE WAY.

Jesus told him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one can come to the Father except through me. John 14:6